Lately I’ve been feeling depressed.
That seems like a horrible way to start any conversation with strangers
Why is it like that?
I feel like we should be more honest and be able to share how we truly feel.
In fact, I feel like this avoidance from our true feelings is what leads to deep depression and suicide.
Being unable to share how you really feel a tragic situation.
Because when you finally open up to how you feel, you start to feel liberated.
Lately, I’ve been avoiding my emotions
I’ve been using every screen possible to hide my consciousness in.
Movies, endless doom, scrolling, food, working out
Anyway, I can avoid these feelings.
There’s a bit of a double edge sword that can happen when you’re on a spiritual journey
When you find out your true power self
The one that is totally free and present
When you realize that that’s who you really are. There’s a tendency to want to live there forever.
I mean, how could you blame me?
If I am truly this free person, then why would I want to feel any other sort of way?
But it’s not that simple.
If you have been living in fear, depression, anxiety, or any other lower vibration emotions
It can take time to let go that
Because our brains are wired to go with the easiest path
That’s how neuropathways work. Once they establish, it’s like a river
The waters gonna want to go down the same carved out path again and again
At first, it takes effort to carve a new path
Continued practice in the form of meditation and mindfulness
Or whatever works for you
The point is, it’s not an instant transformation
And there’s something empowering about believing that it should be
So it’s good to remember that Our journey takes time
Rome was not built in a day
And imagine the power you will have when you’re truly free from the ego
That kind of power is so profound
You’ll experience so much love so much joy so much presence and abundance
It’s like you won’t even be able to recognize who you’ve been
So in order to build this new empire
The old buildings need to be raised
The old ways need to be left behind
And most importantly, the old ways of thinking need to be forgotten
And of course, the mind will come back
The mind will continue to test us. Especially in our moments of weakness.
But that is our human journey
Life is challenge
That is a natural part of life
When we can learn to love and respect the challenge
I believe things get a lot easier for us
Because when that comes in, mind wants to pull us into identification
We can sit back as the watcher
And remember who we are
And also remember that we are on a journey
And that journey is never linear
And we came here for a real reason
And that reason does come with its fair share of struggle
But in order to be free, we have to embrace and accept our fear
And all of our states
Because the ego is a part of us
We created it
And it does have value
But It doesn’t need to control us
We can simply watch it
And choose to love ourselves, no matter what our fear tells us
We can choose to love our fear
And accept all parts of us
Bye for Now,
Dominic
